struggle

Everyday feels like a constant struggle. Because it is. I feel like I'm just constantly treading water or running in place. I feel like I am getting no where. I'm even too scared to really come out and say what is on my mind. Other than the fact that I am scared to be alone. All other thoughts I've locked up. I can't allow them a voice. I'm too frightened of the repercussions they might bring about. So instead, they stay locked up. And let them eat away at me from the inside out.