patience

As I sat and watched a video of my best friend from highschool coo at her 2 month old, I melted. I know she is a wonderful mother. Cause she always took such good care of me back then. :)

And at the same time, my heart wrenches. I'm sad. I want my turn. I know I should be patient. But I've been patient for 6 years. When is my turn? :(

I need some change in my life. I need something big. I'm not trying to be selfish or naive.

but, why. not. me? =(